Fuck,
I'm stuck in a rut.
Months have passed and I actually started believing that, maybe, just maybe, I was going to be okay.
More than okay.
But the days continue to wear on and I find myself aching more than ever.
I'm mostly mad at myself.
It doesn't seem to make sense for me to let go of something that I knew I wanted so very much...
But it also doesn't make sense for me to hold on when there's nothing there.
I want to relive moments.
I want to tell people that they can't come and go as they please.
I want to prove them all wrong.
I want to yell and scream that promises are meant to be kept. Accompanied by ongoing profanity.
I want the world to know that I'm feeling no different from what I was those few months ago, I've just figured out ways to hide it.
I'm tired of putting on a brave face when I'm so heavily broken.
Goodbye, winter. I miss you already.
Welcome, spring. Hello, hay fever.
hope you feel better soon
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i'd say i can relate, just based on what you write, but then again, no one can really understand another's feelings. although from reading your blogs, i can apply a lot of what you say to myself. mm, chin up, tuyen. hope you'll be okay. x
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